Tuesday, January 20, 2009,10:14 am
whenever i dont blog for awhile,
its either that my com spoilt,
or that things have gone wrong in my life. hahaha.
well, my computer didnt spoil.
FRIDAY:D
went to eat nyny for the FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE ! haha.
with joanne png, lihua, peijun and jieru.
it is so expensve and not exactly fantastic leh.
my salad cost about 11 bucks in the end.
O.O!
SALAD LEH!
i admit it was a nice salad, but really expensive)):
but their service is kind of coool,
because they let us play with the cotton candy thing! haha
li hua and i went fareast after that for shopppping ;DD
like finally, we've been craving it all weeek :x
we only had about an hour plus,
but we managed to get something. haha.
this is called pro :D
then we chiong-ed over for BMI.
which was super fun because of gang yuan. HAHAHA.
we made cleaning fun man.
had dinner with D5 and went home.
SATURDAY :D
mum, ling and i brought ahma to lighthouse church today.
seeing her condition now and everything,
feet twisted and hands tiff, swollen from head to toe):
not just for a minute, not even for an hour.
but EVERYDAY):
she's in so much pain from all these.
and we cant do anything to help but pray.
i seriously hate parkinsons disease, i really hate it.
she couldnt even sit more than half an hour.
she couldnt even sit through the service.
one thing i thank God for this year is my ahma's salvation, truly.
but i want to believe for her deliverence and healing as well.
the part that broke my heart is when,
in all her pain and suffering,
she never wanted to leave her room.
but since she's got saved,
she's only ever left her room, to want to go for service.
a service that she probably cant even sit through.
but still she hungers for the love of a God.
she doesnt know it, but she really inspires me.
and then i think about people who go to service reluctantly, ignorantly even.
and then i think of people like my ahma.
i want to say i understand, but sometimes i really dont.
that night when we brought her back to her room.
we all sat with her and talked.
after awhile she even said, she wanted to go back to church.
but ivy had to tell her service was over.
i tell you, at the moment i was already in tears.
i looked at her from head to toe, all red and swollen.
her body twisted and stiffen from the disease.
i now know what strength my ahma has in her.
i went home and i cried.
SUNDAY
my mood was horribly torn when i woke up.
people whom i expected to react in certain ways did - as usual.
went to fareast to pick up my shoes :D
which turned out to be really big):
so i'm going to put tissue paper! haha.
then , chiong-ed down for pm.
and it turned out everyone was late -.-
i think my mind was kind of distracted during pm :x
but service was great(:
really really great.
this series Pastor is on, is like. woah man!
hahaha.
i now understand what ken meant.
God did answer some of my questions through the service.
in fact, throughtout the day.
esp during discipleship class.
it was with Charleston today.
i feel he has a really personal quality about him, to connect with us.
he shared with us many stories, and got us to share too.
when i heard about people like Joy with her PO.
they're really heroes of faith man!
but still i thought about the PO.
and, the parents arent the bad guys.
they're just being, parents.
logical, protective.
i dont think we can really blame them ?
it was really paiseh when i cried in front of Charleston man!
but he really spoke to how i was feeling that day.
and i couldnt help but ask :x
i felt so bad cos i even said "charleston dont look at me leh"
when i was crying :xxx
i know that people like him have gone through so much to be what they are today.
but, i dont think i have that strength :x
shared with fungus about how i felt
about all the intgs.
my friends actually, guess i cant say too much here. hahaha.
but i'm going to have even more faith man!
press on press on.
went home, talked to my parents,
well , it almost went well.
soon they went back to scolding and being pissed -.-
i seriously long for some peace in my life. haha.
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